Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Why
It's been a long day. Feeling very tired mentally, physically and emotionally.
How nice if everyone can be contented with what they have and be simple. Well, i know it's not easy. Is it sometimes the things we want are so simple that people dun understand what's the big deal. Something is lacking. I do not know how to explain what's it is that's lacking. It's simple and small. That's an emptiness inside my heart. I'm so confuse abt what i really want.
There's always a period which things tt is very common or normal suddenly matters to me alot. What kind of person am I? I feel that he dunno me when i dun even noe myself. Wat a joke? Guess we were both stubborn in some ways. In terms of thinking and staying the way we are. I dun believe in changing myself. Is this stubborn? I guess i'm too naive to think that love is to accept the way a person is. What's conbtradicting is sometimes i cannot stand the way he is too.
R/s nowadays are very fragile. Time really doesn't matters. Looking at my friends' r/s which doesn't turn out too well after a few donkey yrs really made me lost faith. I do not want to be stereotype the guys but the trend showed that guys
cannot have too much $$ coz they will go astray. Always full of lousy excuses and push all the blame to the girls. Not all guys but some. Already seen a few bastards.
Argghhhhhh. Maybe i'm not in that kind of situation before tt my bf is a bastard. That's why i really admire those girls that can tolerate and patient with these guys.
No one is perfect. And leopard can never change its spots.
